i have a horrible panera crush. horrible because nothing will happen, it won't go anywhere. but before i left to come back to mass i felt like it was going somewhere! on sunday he told me as soon as i got there that he needed to talk to me. then i was in the walk-in getting cream cheese and he came in just to talk to me. he apologized for not going to my party the night before and he asked me what i was doing this weekend. i stupidly told him that the weekend was basically over. he said oh and then asked what i was doing next weekend. and then i had to tell him that i would be back in mass for school. and he said that sucks. so later that day i told him i wasn't doing anything that night or the next day and he should call me if he was free. and he said he would have to see, he was supposed to help a friend, but he would give me a call. well basically, he never called and i tried calling him, left a message, and he never called back.
is it just me, or does it seem like he made an effort and wanted to hang out with me??? cause that's what i felt and then since nothing has came of it i'm really upset. and even though i haven't talked to him since that sunday i can't get him off my mind. i even called him today and got butterflies in my stomach and everything. i left a message. i'm really hoping he'll call back but i somewhat doubt it. but i really really really want him to. any ideas?
other than that, I'M LEAVING ON TUESDAY TO GO TO NEW ORLEANS FOR A WEEK TO PARTY 24/7 FOR MARDI GRAS!!!! HELLS YEAH BABY!!!!!
and now i need to go read 104 pages in a book for a class i'm trying to get out of. kill me now. fucking us latino lit.
i hate boys.